But he saw me... that didn't prevent him from hurting me.
Though... Did he trully realise it ?
He can be so naive when he wants... So cute, but so nerving.
I think I liked him... or maybe it was just a need, a desire for pleasure... XD dunno. And I don't care, the main fact was I wanted him, it was so obvious, and that's why he hugged another girl... just in front of me. That boy who was a placebo for my missing dear friends...
Maybe the distance makes stronger my fear of being alone, and my willing to get a boy quickly to fill this gap. I explain : when I was with my true friends, i felt so good i didn't need of not being loved.
Now... it's become an emergency. And i know well that it's pityful, thank you. >_<
Anyway... when i saw this beautiful and charming snake flirt with this innocent and kind girl, i felt disguted, betrayed... even if it wasn't "love", it is so hurting to be the looser, the not-chosen...
Am i ugly, bad-tempered ? Both ?
At this moment, i ask me too much stupid questions. But see that... i can !
PS : Sorry for the English, i might have been touched by a weird disease but i didn't even thought about writting it in a normal language XD